So I get up today and my body instantly throws me to the floor and I’m in a ball almost sobbing. It’s going to be one of those days. Then I try to get up and just go take a shower and what happens? I get insanely dizzy, so I just washed my hair instead. Sometimes, I wish I could trade this body in for a new one and just let this old one rest. It’s been a very long day.
I know I haven’t posted anything on here in a very long time, but I am going through some things that are difficult to say the least. One of which was turning in my own father to the police today. The new year has started off going well, and I thought that doing what I did would help to bring some closure to things I had been struggling with. So far it seems that it’s only causing a bit more pain and confusion. I’ll be hopefully uploading an audio bit about it in the coming weeks, or maybe a video. We will see. To the 7 people that follow me, but probably don’t even check this anymore because of my seriously long absence, thanks for following.
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Broken Heart
By
Heather Ackerman
How do I make it stop?
This broken heart that still beats
Pumping all my hopes and dreams
Onto the floor to dissipate
Why did you have to cross that line?
Did the judgment call pay off?
Should I hold out for one more day?
Maybe then I’d feel
Something other than shame
Remorse and regret
Maybe then I’d be able to see
What made you turn on me.
The memories suffocate me
Make it hard to move
This pain is overwhelming
And yet, I wonder
Do you still feel the same?
Do you know what you did wrong?
Was it planned or happenstance?
I can’t hold on anymore.
I can’t see through the tears.
Another bottle to wash away the memory
Another pill to calm the pain
More of you slips away
Only to find you back again
Purgatory would be easier
Than losing your best friend
But we roll with the punches
We take life as it is
Because we have to move on
We have to see the next sunrise
For if we don’t
We have only given in
To the broken heart bleeding out
The endless suffering
And the fateful demise
It’s only a matter of time
But when it comes down to it
What will you choose?
